Thursday, April 22, 2010 { 5:07 PM }

29th of September '09



*sigh* ..i guess people are just like that. they come and go. yes. they change. and they leave… whoever knew that people could be such frauds. liars. making promises they wouldn’t do. How could something so perfect just go all away like dust. well, it seemed that way. I was wrong. Nothing in this world is perfect. Nothing you can see isn’t temporary. I thought how things happened were like fairytales, honestly. I never knew hurt like this before. Hurt couldn’t be anymore real to me now..

All those things you told me. I believed them like a child. I hung on to every word. Thought I could rest my head thinking that I had nothing to fear. I was so stupid, thinking that I knew you. You’ve changed and I barely see that person I came to love. I never thought you’d turn into this monster I was afraid of. You were my sun. My world. My everything. I thought I was the same to you ..and again, I was wrong.

Don’t you even realize how great the damage you gave me. You don’t know what you’re putting me through. And your apologies do no good. You think ‘sorry’ makes things a whole lot better? You actually think it would, huh? I had every right to be mad at you. I had every right to bash you and tell you things that you never wanted to hear. But, yes. I didn’t. I knew that getting angry won’t change anything. I loathe every bit of what you did. But I never hated the fact that you, are you. You are the same person i first met. You might have changed but you’re still the same person I loved. The same person who broke my heart and left me, just like that. ..and you think everything went okay when you told me you loved her?

I showed you that I was happy for you. That it was okay. But everything wasn’t okay. Everything was falling apart for me. You don’t know how heavy the weight of the hurt is. The one you caused me to have. You thought being friends with me would fix everything. Well it doesn’t. You can never ever change the fact that, it still hurts and it still is killing me. I’d like to be your friend, but. Nothing you’d do would fix ANYTHING. at all.

I gave and done everything for. Tried to understand every single mistake. But you can’t expect me to understand this. Not now. Not ever.

I am not a second option. and certainly not your rebound girl. who would make you feel better everytime she’s not there for you. I love you and all, but this I can never tolerate.

It’s fine. Don’t feel bad about something you’ve done already. Because you were the one who chose to do it. You were the one, dumb enough to let me go. If I have to love in silence, then I’d gladly accept. Though you couldn’t expect me to still be there when she leaves you. NO. Not anymore.

But.. I just want you to know, even this one last time. Though it’s really too late. That, I Love you. and I wish. you never changed.