She's caught in the reality
of the fantasy in her world.
She'd close her eyes
when everything's a mess..
and every time, she knew;
everything was a lie.
They say flings are just those things you get naturally through summer. They are those relationships that are usually not taken seriously, and are gone when school is in season. Which means that nothing's official. But sometimes, we can't avoid being attention seekers and hopeless romantics who relentlessly look for love instead of waiting for it to come to us. We indulge into our emotions and eventually get attached. This is why we usually hurt on this year's period. We unintentionally get serious, and become unaware of emotional attachment. Guilty as charged, I'd rather not start anything with someone if I'm not willing to pull through or pull myself out whenever it's necessary. It just gives you something to make you feel less about yourself. It would only give you back those days when you just want the ground to swallow you up and you feel like your world is falling apart just because of one guy who wasn't even taking you seriously. You started out a fling and it was the same for this guy. Would you really say it was his fault, when you were the one who let yourself get carried away. So you end up crashing. Ripped apart when you knew well what was bound to happen.
Summer isn't supposed to be that way. Summer flings aren't supposed to hurt. Almost everything's bound to be temporary and we should know that. We should be giving less attention to how we look and more attention to how our hearts are. We're not even supposed to play around, because flings are equally brutal and can damage your heart at any time. You can't blame anyone for hurting you, because you're the one giving them the chance to do so.
I think it's best to avoid emotional attachments while you're not ready for a serious one. You would always end up hurting because you chose to take a shortcut, putting everything in your hands, knowing it wasn't God's time. It is better to wait for forever than to get every heartache in the world. Save yourself the sadness and the pain, and everything that's eating your heart out. Because you deserve better. You deserve nothing less.
