Friday, April 30, 2010 { 11:44 AM }

HELLO :D :D
After a stomach turning wait,
I just found out I passed the TDT I took last 17th of April. :D :D
haha! This is just soo FTW. *woot* :O Thank you Lord. (: all the work really paid off. I'll get to go to my dream school, YAY!
UP, here I come. :)))

Thursday, April 29, 2010 { 1:28 PM }

Could it be, that summer's gone too soon?!

They say flings are just those things you get naturally through summer. They are those relationships that are usually not taken seriously, and are gone when school is in season. Which means that nothing's official. But sometimes, we can't avoid being attention seekers and hopeless romantics who relentlessly look for love instead of waiting for it to come to us. We indulge into our emotions and eventually get attached. This is why we usually hurt on this year's period. We unintentionally get serious, and become unaware of emotional attachment. Guilty as charged, I'd rather not start anything with someone if I'm not willing to pull through or pull myself out whenever it's necessary. It just gives you something to make you feel less about yourself. It would only give you back those days when you just want the ground to swallow you up and you feel like your world is falling apart just because of one guy who wasn't even taking you seriously. You started out a fling and it was the same for this guy. Would you really say it was his fault, when you were the one who let yourself get carried away. So you end up crashing. Ripped apart when you knew well what was bound to happen.
Summer isn't supposed to be that way. Summer flings aren't supposed to hurt. Almost everything's bound to be temporary and we should know that. We should be giving less attention to how we look and more attention to how our hearts are. We're not even supposed to play around, because flings are equally brutal and can damage your heart at any time. You can't blame anyone for hurting you, because you're the one giving them the chance to do so.
I think it's best to avoid emotional attachments while you're not ready for a serious one. You would always end up hurting because you chose to take a shortcut, putting everything in your hands, knowing it wasn't God's time. It is better to wait for forever than to get every heartache in the world. Save yourself the sadness and the pain, and everything that's eating your heart out. Because you deserve better. You deserve nothing less.

{ 11:50 AM }



This Canadian heartthrob tweeted his 2.1 million fans Wednesday to report
"Finally got to New Zealand last night. The airport was crazy. Not happy that someone stole my hat and knocked down my mama. Come on people."


Okay, this kid is just adored by fans. I'm personally not one, but I just read the news that his outdoor concert performance was cancelled just because of the rampage he was causing. and would you believe that 5000 people just camped out for that event? Man, he's famous. There were even injured fans in the crowd. The most serious was a fractured kneecap. OUCH! :| He didn't even get to sign autographs and have pictures taken with the fans. His Mom was also pushed over in the incident. haha :| Luckily, his mom was okay. This rampaging and fan stampede happened on every place he went to.. Long Island, New York. Sydney, Australia & New Zealand. Justin even went as far as tweeting, "I am the most dangerous creature here!", because of all the commotion he brought about. :)))))))

{ 11:25 AM }

While I was browsing through youtube, I got reeally bored. So I kinda stumbled into this video thumbnail. haha. SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS :D :D ..okay, so I love watching that show. I never grew out of it. :))) ..it was weird though, 'cause he wasn't yellow like I knew him to be, he was green. EWWWW. hahahaha. I was kinda intrigued so I clicked it, only to find out that it wasn't really spongbob in it. It was a parody of some sort. But I was sure it wasn't for children to watch, because it had like series with drug names as titles. And they even smoke pot. :| :| All of them were like, sea creatures who do drugs. I think they even use "seaweed" as a substitute word for "weed", and everyone knows what that is. This is just sick. :| -_-"


here's a video of it.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010 { 10:39 PM }

"KILL me, KILL me, KILL me. oooooooooooohh.
Like KILL me, KILL me, KILL me. nooooooo."

okay.. so I don't hate Justin Bieber. But I seriously think that this kid hasn't GONE into PUBERTY, yet. The squeaky voice explains it all. =))) and his songs are a bit shallow for me, and he keeps repeating the same words a lot. haha! so, uhh. anyway.

Here's DJ EARWORM'S new remix. IT's superdupermega COOL yo! ;)

{ 10:32 PM }

Just a realization for the night:


" People are unpredictable, and unconsistent. "

{ 9:57 PM }

hi. :D sooo.. I wasn't able to update yesterday. didn't feel like it. haha. sorry :)))
I'm browsing for clothes on the net, and magazines are piled up beside me, haha! :D ..I plan to go shopping sometime this april. aaandd, may. ;) just for college. 'Cause we won't be having uniforms, unlike high school. :| i miss.. aaaand, yeah. I got past my curfew yesterday. BAHAHA. >:))) *evil laugh*

Sunday, April 25, 2010 { 11:01 PM }

I'm sleepy, but I don't wanna sleep yet.
Curfew's at 11. I'm signing out now..

{ 7:23 PM }

I'm home :D
okay, so I got to buy nail polish. But unfortunately, I only found yellow.
:| :| *AWWW* even the FACE SHOP didn't have gray. :( oh well. :| But there is a gray nail polish, right? okay, I'm not so sure. >.< sigh.. anywaaay, I. am. SUPERDUPERMEGAHUNGRY. =))) waiting for dinner is just like, UGGHHH. This is total torture. ..by the way, I didn't buy yellow because I was supporting NOYNOY's campaign. haha! ;)

{ 9:16 AM }

okay.. I'm waiting for mom.

Saturday, April 24, 2010 { 11:17 AM }

EPIC WORD FOR THE DAY:


i'm sooo "EGGSOYTED! "


hahahahaa.
it's a fun word to say :)))

*roight*

{ 10:49 AM }

hi, (:

I'm at auntie's. ate breakfast around 7, aand. slept again. haha :P :P
I woke up at eight fifty something, theeenn. took a bath at 10. hmm.. I went online between those hours. aaand... yeah, that's pretty much all I've done so far. :))) I've nuthin' to do again. =))) so I just thought about posting something. and uhh.... I was just wondering what life I'd be having for college. probably nothing different, huh. I just hope I pass the UP exam I took last saturday. It's this Talent Determination Test, or what they call the TDT. It had two parts, we had to draw this statue for the first part and second part was the visual representation. I think I did well, but every person in the room was soo good. and I was like, 'WTH? TT_TT' ..I did my best though. So, haha! Kudos to my exam results. I hope I get in. :)

Friday, April 23, 2010 { 3:34 PM }

..okay, it figures that my phone's charger is the problem.
But my phone's oold. It turns off randomly when I use it. :| ..hm. haha! soo.. uhh. :-" oh yeah, everyday's just burnin' hot! *grunt* I feel so sticky. EWW. -_-" I shall take a bath noww. :> :>

{ 2:23 PM }

Yes, hello. GOOD AFTERNOOON :D
I am still soo bored. But I've got stuff to do. Oh, mom. :|
WE RAN OUT OF ICE CREEEAAM. :O :O ..noooooooooo :c ..now i'm hungry. I shall put this in the grocery list. *smugg* oh, and. I haven't had lunch yet. haha! I kinda forgot. :| so, in about 5 minutes I'll be eating. ..hm, my phone's ancient features are kicking in. It wont charge properly. darn iiittt.. I hate when I get my load wasted. >:P ..I NEED a replacement. *must tell mom*
..okay. I've got no more to say.

bye (:

Thursday, April 22, 2010 { 10:43 PM }

EPIC WORD FOR THE DAY:


WHAT THE "FUDGE?!"



..this is just so FTW, :))))
i just wanted to share. HAHA.

{ 10:26 PM }

it's been awhile. :)

I've been busy and.. haha! fine. lazy just to even bother to update this thing. :P :P
But since I've had nothing to do the whoooole day, I decided to fix my blog, my tumblr & my twitter. :D :D haha. ..aaand, guess whut? it's just friggin' HOT today. Like, I can't even stand walking under the sun. Just for that, I had a lazy afternoon. :| ..GEEZ. I feel so effin' idle today. I MUST GO OUT. or better yet, just find something better for me to do, than just lie around and be a total couch potato. I mean, I'm not a tv person, But I use the computer A LOT. The same routine goes for me everydaaay, and I'm sorta gettin' tired of it. soo.. yeah. there. I just ran out of words.. :| GREAT. :-L
i guess this is all for now. :)

BYE.

{ 5:08 PM }

30th of september '09



I woke up this morning with this empty feeling. Wanting to go back to sleep, thinking that I could sleep this all away. Which, clearly, I couldn’t.. I’d be willing to do it everyday if i have to, just to get rid of it. Close my eyes and think that everything’s just a nightmare.. IT IS a nightmare. One that I couldn’t wake up of. Weak as i can get, i would try to let it all out. I would cry. But I couldn’t. I just couldn’t. Tears refuse to come out of my eyes. and those tears won’t even do justice the pain you caused me. It still won’t make me feel better.

I intended to lie on my bed the whole day. Thinking that time would just pass and this memory won’t last. Every inch of the room just screams your name. Reminding me that everything’s a lie, and you won’t be coming back. I would shut my eyes so tightly trying to make these thoughts disappear. Though when I do, I would still wish that when I open my eyes. You’d be there. What’s wrong with me…. As i opened my eyes, I just realized. That everything doesn’t make any sense anymore. Flashbacks start to invade my head. and yes. You’d always be there. yeah, well. I HATE IT. So I forced myself into getting out of bed. and doing something i don’t even want to do. Just to get rid of YOU in my system. Don’t worry, i just sat down. It was the best thing i could think of doing. The best thing that won’t even help me forget about you.

I admit. From time to time I waste my life wishing that I could do anything. Just anything to take things back the way they were. Though I know, wishing won’t do anything. It won’t redo the things you’ve said and done.

This thing inside me is just breaking. Falling into the cold, bitter ground. The ground where you should have been. Catching it when it falls.

Don’t even start with me about you being hurt. Because you don’t even know how much pain is beating my heart out. You don’t know how much time I spend everyday helping myself to forget about this freakin’ person who left me. How I would take my first steps to happiness. and find my self back to where i was the next day. going back to where I started, like i never did take a step. Even just a bit. and you say you were hurt.. you might want to know how this feels.

It’s like…. HELL. hellofanamusementpark. yeah. it’s fun.

..NOT.

{ 5:07 PM }

29th of September '09



*sigh* ..i guess people are just like that. they come and go. yes. they change. and they leave… whoever knew that people could be such frauds. liars. making promises they wouldn’t do. How could something so perfect just go all away like dust. well, it seemed that way. I was wrong. Nothing in this world is perfect. Nothing you can see isn’t temporary. I thought how things happened were like fairytales, honestly. I never knew hurt like this before. Hurt couldn’t be anymore real to me now..

All those things you told me. I believed them like a child. I hung on to every word. Thought I could rest my head thinking that I had nothing to fear. I was so stupid, thinking that I knew you. You’ve changed and I barely see that person I came to love. I never thought you’d turn into this monster I was afraid of. You were my sun. My world. My everything. I thought I was the same to you ..and again, I was wrong.

Don’t you even realize how great the damage you gave me. You don’t know what you’re putting me through. And your apologies do no good. You think ‘sorry’ makes things a whole lot better? You actually think it would, huh? I had every right to be mad at you. I had every right to bash you and tell you things that you never wanted to hear. But, yes. I didn’t. I knew that getting angry won’t change anything. I loathe every bit of what you did. But I never hated the fact that you, are you. You are the same person i first met. You might have changed but you’re still the same person I loved. The same person who broke my heart and left me, just like that. ..and you think everything went okay when you told me you loved her?

I showed you that I was happy for you. That it was okay. But everything wasn’t okay. Everything was falling apart for me. You don’t know how heavy the weight of the hurt is. The one you caused me to have. You thought being friends with me would fix everything. Well it doesn’t. You can never ever change the fact that, it still hurts and it still is killing me. I’d like to be your friend, but. Nothing you’d do would fix ANYTHING. at all.

I gave and done everything for. Tried to understand every single mistake. But you can’t expect me to understand this. Not now. Not ever.

I am not a second option. and certainly not your rebound girl. who would make you feel better everytime she’s not there for you. I love you and all, but this I can never tolerate.

It’s fine. Don’t feel bad about something you’ve done already. Because you were the one who chose to do it. You were the one, dumb enough to let me go. If I have to love in silence, then I’d gladly accept. Though you couldn’t expect me to still be there when she leaves you. NO. Not anymore.

But.. I just want you to know, even this one last time. Though it’s really too late. That, I Love you. and I wish. you never changed.